Guided Healing Visualization v3

Hi. An updated version of my guided healing visualization is available.

It is a visualization that I made to suit my own healing needs, and it may be helpful for others.

Visit this page to download the most recent version, and read information about how it can be used.

This is an updated version of the guided healing process that i made. In this version i have combined the multi track album into 2 tracks. One for helping with an already identified issue, and one where the subconscious mind is asked to decide the issue to be healed.

Comment if you wish to give feedback.

About V3:

Two versions of this guided healing process:

1. without any predetermined issue or idea – subconscious led.
2. with an issue or idea that has already arisen – your chosen topic.

This guided visualization:

• does not change what happened in your life, or your memories.
• does not reduce the distinction between reality and imagination.
• may change your interpretation of your life experiences.
• may change your conclusions about your life and about yourself.

The audio mentions “timeline”, “merging”, and a “safe space of your creation”.

Timeline:

• this is a minds-eye representation of the events in your life, in order.
• it contains references to unalterable memories, and alterable interpretations/opinions.
• it can take any form you imagine. it can change and vary as required at the time. it doesnt have to be straight or continuous.

Merging:

• parts of our mind previously separated from us, often are represented by versions of ourself that reflect the age of separation. a vital part of the healing process is to merge those selves back together with us, so that we can enjoy the benefit of that part contributing to our success, rather than burdening us with the task of maintaining the separation, or worse, the possible self sabotage from a traumatized separated part.
• is the process of visualizing another version of ourself, coming into us and becoming one being.
• may happen easily and quickly, or may be impossible until a later time.
• may be resisted by a self that does not trust us – it may first require explaining the situation, negotiating or making friends. It is typical that the other self has some separate consciousness. It may be like dealing with a fearful child, requiring comforting and building of trust over time.
• may be impossible due to the rare case of the other self being a disguised intruder. Also possible, are true selves being disguised as something else.

A safe space of your creation:

• a place created in the minds-eye, separate from the timeline.
• can hold selves that can not yet be merged.
• can visit it anytime for visualizing further healing work.
• can be created quickly and easily with eyes closed, but may take some time and consideration to choose it. it can be a room, a building, a natural place, anything you choose. it can be modified as required at any time.

This guided visualization:

• is freely available for anyone to use.
• is free of obligation or contract.
• is free to be used as an example for you to create your own version.
• is partially based on visualizations by Brandon Bays, Christopher Howard, and Melanie Tonia Evans – also many other influences and personal experience.
• is made to suit Gary, so it may not suit others.

Privacy Statement: I don’t require or intend to collect any information about anyone that uses these visualizations. I will not use the information WordPress makes available by anyone who gives feedback to me through this page, or any blog post that points here.

Freedom Statement: Downloading and using this visualization does not place any obligation or contract from me onto the user. No payment of any kind is required.

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Guided Healing Visualization v2

Hi. An updated version of my guided healing visualization is available.

It is a visualization that I made to suit my own healing needs, and it may be helpful for others.

Visit this page to download the most recent version, and read information about how it can be used.

This is an updated version of the guided healing process that i made available here.

Comment if you wish to give feedback.

ABOUT V2:

Two ways to use this multiple audio track healing process:

1. without any predetermined issue or idea – begin with the first track.
2. with an issue or idea that has already arisen – skip to the second track.

If more time is needed to do work in the visualization, play can be paused with a single click of some headset buttons.
Some find that double clicking the button, or the power button, will skip to the next track.

This guided visualization:

• does not change what happened in your life, or your memories.
• does not reduce the distinction between reality and imagination.
• may change your interpretation of your life experiences.
• may change your conclusions about your life and about yourself.

The audio mentions “timeline”, “merging”, and a “safe space of your creation”.

Timeline:

• this is a minds-eye representation of the events in your life, in order.
• it contains references to unalterable memories, and alterable interpretations/opinions.

Merging:

• is the process of visualizing another version of our self, coming into us and becoming one being.
• may happen easily and quickly, or may be impossible until a later time.
• may be resisted by a self that does not trust us – it may first require explaining the situation, negotiating or making friends. It is typical that the other self has some separate consciousness. It may be like dealing with a fearful child, requiring comforting and building of trust over time.
• may be impossible due to the rare case of the other self being a disguised intruder. Also possible, are true selves being disguised as something else.

A safe space of your creation:

• a place created in the minds-eye.
• separate from the timeline.
• can hold selves that can not yet be merged.
• can visit anytime for visualizing further healing work.

I created these visualizations for personal use, and they may not be suitable for everyone. After using the guided visualizations of others for so many years, I finally created one for myself that is more suited to my needs.

This guided visualization:

• is freely available for anyone to use and is free of obligation or contract.
• is partially based on visualizations by Christopher Howard, Brandon Bays, and Melanie Tonia Evans – also many other influence and personal experience.
• is tailored to me, so it may not suit others.
• Feedback is welcome.

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Guided healing visualization / meditation

Update: A more recent version of this Guided Visualization is available. Go to this page to download it.

After using the guided visualizations of others for so many years, I finally created one for myself that is more suited to my needs. Here is is for you to freely use.

The following information is included in the zip file of the multi track mp3 album (click to download).

Two ways to use this multiple audio track healing process:

1. without any predetermined issue or idea – begin with the first track.
2. with an issue or idea that has already arisen – begin with the second track.

This guided visualization:

• does not change what happened in your life, or your memories.
• does not reduce the distinction between reality and imagination.
• may change your interpretation of your life experiences.
• may change your conclusions about your life and about yourself.

The audio mentions “timeline”, “merging”, and a “safe space of your creation”.

Timeline:

• this is a minds-eye representation of the events in your life, in order.
• it contains references to unalterable memories, and alterable interpretations/opinions.

Merging:

• is the process of visualizing another version of ourself, coming into us and becoming one being.
• may happen easily and quickly, or may be impossible until a later time.
• may be resisted by a self that does not trust us – it may first require explaining the situation, negotiating or making friends. It is typical that the other self has some separate consciousness. It may be like dealing with a fearful child, requiring comforting and building of trust over time.
• may be impossible due to the rare case of the other self being a disguised intruder. Also possible, are true selves being disguised as something else.

A safe space of your creation:

• a place created in the minds-eye.
• separate from the timeline.
• can hold selves that can not yet be merged.
• can visit anytime for visualizing further healing work.

This guided visualization:

• is freely available for anyone to use and is free of obligation or contract.
• is partially based on visualizations by Brandon Bays, Christopher Howard, and Melanie Tonia Evans – also many other influence and personal experience.
• is tailored to me, so it may not suit others. Feedback is welcome.

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An origin of self hate

The emotional response to being thwarted – anger – can also be directed at the self.

In a previous post, I explained the pain of carrying the decision to surrender, to minimize abuse. Mixed together in that pain, is the anger from being thwarted. However, that anger is partly directed at the self.

In ritual abuse, the decision to surrender to minimize the abuse, is intentionally forced onto child victims. Subconsciously or otherwise, it is intentional. It also allows the abuser to externalize blame for the abuse. After that decision, the victim is still thwarted, but differently. In response, anger is still generated.

That generated anger is now associated with the decision to surrender – the decision made by the self. The mind observes the cause and effect of deciding to surrender, and the subsequent lessened abuse. The abuse supposedly ‘agreed to’ – under duress.

Abusers strengthen this association with phrases like “you deserve it”, “you brought it on yourself”, “its because of what you did/didnt do”, “you chose it”, etc. These persistently blaming phrases help to connect the anger with the self, and are present in psychological abuse of both children and adults.

That anger is attached to, and directed at, the self. If there is enough anger, it will manifest as self-hate.

Despite the mind being used as a weapon against itself, it also has built-in mechanisms to heal. Emotions continually work to maintain mental health, if allowed. Grieving ‘dissolves’ anger.

Carrying the of pain of giving in

A harrowing aspect of ritual abuse, is the creation of conditions for the victim to submit to the will of the abusers. They want their victims to willingly do things a free person would refuse to do. To participate willingly in the disgusting perversions of human scum. This is their confirmation that the victims mind has been broken in – comprehensively defeated. Like an animal broken in for a life of exploitation.

Abusers give their victims the choice of how much suffering to endure. There is the choice of being tortured, or cooperating. But submission is not enough to avoid punishment. The victim must appear to want to be a slave. As a victim i chose to perform, in order to minimize my suffering. This meant pretending to like what they insisted i do. At the time this meant my suffering was greatly reduced. But there was an unknown cost.

I was forced to exchange short term physical suffering for much less intense indefinite psychological suffering. The suffering of having given in to their abuse, of cooperating with it. Of pretending I was happy to do as they demanded. I didnt avoid the pain, i transformed and postponed it. I set it aside and carried it with me all my life. That pain of having decided to pretend for them. A decision i could never be happy with.

Now i am discarding that pain i carried for half a century – by realizing what was intentionally done to my mind against my will. That pain influenced my life and my relationships. It pulled my life in its direction, of accepting things and people i should have rejected, and pretending they were not bad.

To surrender to survive, is a suffering of its own.

Ending My Catastrophic Thinking

A few months ago I had another overreaction to something that happened, and I later analyzed the pattern of thinking involved. (Usually I let it pass without special attention)

I realized that I have a part of my mind, that thinks up the worst possible outcome for situations – then causes me to be angry about it. Especially about upcoming events. It does this about imaginary things – not about real situations. The result is that a lot of angry energy is wasted on an internal rant about a fictitious situation that will never happen. It wastes my life energy on fiction. Theres more than one circumstance that can lead to catastrophic thinking. For me, its internal separate parts that carry out that task.

I used a minds eye visualization to follow the anger to the source. It was a 5yr old me, who only cared about fighting and being angry. I wanted to rescue and merge that part, but when he realized it meant leaving that place, he didnt want to go, he just wanted to stay and fight. I didnt know what to do with the situation. I ‘captured a snapshot / made a bookmark’ (by willing it to exist) so that I could easily pick up where I left off.

For a couple of days, I was at a loss about how to heal that part. I realized that being angry about terrible imaginary outcomes, is one of the worst things that happens in my life as an adult. It sabotages so much, especially my stability of mind and life. Its just psychological self harm – thats its purpose. It was created by my sicko abusers to sabotage my whole life.

Then, in another visualization, I returned to that part, and confronted it. I was mean and abusive to it. I told it how useless it was, and that it was a part intentionally turned against me. It kept resisting and I kept attacking. I said I will fight it until it agrees to merge with me. I made it clear how I felt about it. It asked if I hated it. I said I hated what it did.
Eventually it started to give in a little. Then I tried to start a merging. It still resisted, but I was able to get it inside myself. It was still struggling a bit, but at least I got it started. I left it at that.

Now, months later, I had forgotten about doing this healing work. I was reminded of it by reviewing what I recorded about it. I had already realized that I have recently been much more calm, and have had much less catastrophic thinking. I had put it down to the overall effect of doing healing visualizations. Although that is true, now I see that it is mostly the result of this specific healing visualization that I did.

Usually in my visualizations, I am pretty kind to parts that I find and rescue, and take time to explain to them the reality of their situation. They are usually unaware that I exist as an older person. Many are initially reluctant about getting rescued from their isolation.

However, on rare occasions, an opposite strategy is needed. Maybe I have done this only twice, in many years of healing work. I will only do it if that is what is needed. I know that I am dealing with parts of myself that were split off by abuse. The vast majority need welcoming and kindness. Almost everything has its exceptions.

I want to make it clear that this is what worked for my situation. Its not a suggestion that this should be used by others – or not used – with parts that have the job of catastrophic thinking. And its not the only way to heal inner parts. Im seriously warning against being aggressive with separated inner parts, for frivolous reasons, or just to see if it will work – they are the SELF. I use it only when my higher self (IN-tuition) indicates it is to be used – and then only after trying the usual way.

The fake mind control implant

I have a scar on the top of my head. For many years i would habitually pick at that scar, while imagining that i was digging out a mind control implant – one that was for controlling my mind in some way. This has been the case since i was a teenager. Decades.

The image of the implant that i had in my head was one that was about the size of a peppercorn, with a thin metal wire, sometimes two, almost as thin as a hair, of quite springy metal. I imagined being able to get hold of the bulbous end and draw out the implant. I never did.

Because the implant was never there.

The only thing intentionally implanted, was the idea of the implant. That was all that was needed for the mind control. An implant is not needed when the desired effect can be achieved with the belief that an implant is there. The fake implant, that can reveal to the adults in charge what I am thinking. So i have no choice but to try to control my thoughts. As long as i am controlling my thoughts in fear of being caught out, i am so easily controlled. Not just for individual mind control, but for mass mind control (now aka mass formation psychosis) also.

The belief of a physical implant is created by suggestion and a setup of circumstances. A child can easily be tricked, by theatrical setups, into thinking that the adults really CAN read their thoughts – the implant is real and it works. This is because the situation is set up, and the circumstances controlled. A child cannot see through such circumstances. When a child is young and critical thinking is not yet developed, it is easy to use theater to make them believe all kinds of things are real. Implants, aliens, etc.

The adults that do these kinds of things to children are disgusting sick monsters that destroy entire lives by the harm they do to children. The human race cannot progress while such monsters freely live among us.

I have heard from a number of other Ritual Abuse survivors, that they believe they have such implants. I cant know if they are real, or fake like mine. I know that research into such implants are real – even movies have had a say about them – ex. “Terminal Man”. But in the case of ritual abuse and mind control, they are likely not needed. Trickery is more than enough with a young child.

I hope that the consideration of an implant being fake, can help other ritual abuse survivors with their recovery.

Squid Game in 1977

Shapes of the mind control of child slaves.

The squares triangles and circles in squid game are not from squid game. They are known by survivors of systematic mind control / satanic ritual abuse / menticide to have particular meanings.

This aartwork is from 1999, based on a photo from 1977, which I used to express what was being done to my mind.

The Monsters Power Trip

Many pedophiles want to pay for pre-traumatized child victims.

They can, with little intimidation, cause the child to submit to abuse and trauma, out of fear.

The abuser experiences the fiction of seemingly having supernatural power over others.

Just a little effort and the other submits. A power trip by an adult over a child.

They are just pathetic monsters paying for victims, that other monsters have already traumatized.

Their experience of being powerful is completely fake. The delusion of sickos.

The Observatory Clinic Documents

In 2003, I investigated my attendance in the mid-1970s, at the Observatory Clinic in Melbourne Australia. I managed to retrieve copies of my medical recrods through Freedom of Information. This video linked below presents the documents and their background.

Gary’s Survivor Story – The Observatory Clinic 2021-09